Go and LIVE.

Life.

We go through the motions everyday but do we LIVE?

I tend to think that we don’t live every moment of every day but that there are those rare moments in a day that for whatever reason stand out.

I know in my own life I have days that blur together. I work, go to school, go home and do it all over again the next day. It gets tiring sometimes, but then out of nowhere something happens. You’ll have a stranger pay you a compliment you weren’t expecting, you’ll get an award at work, or for no reason at all you come home to find your roommate/spouse/significant other cleaned the house AND made you dinner while you were working. And that little moment makes up for all of the stressful repetitious nonsense that you’ve had to deal with.

Now, while those surprise moments that just make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside are great and all, it’s probably a good idea to MAKE TIME TO LIVE!

What do I mean, you ask?

  • Take time off work. (even if it’s just one day)
  • Go to the beach
  • Sit at home and watch that show you’ve been dying to see but it’s just been piling up on the DVR
  • Read a book
  • Go for a walk in the park
  • Cruise around with the windows down and the music blearing for no reason
  • Cheat on that diet you’ve no doubt been killing yourself on

JUST DO SOMETHING!

Whatever makes you happy. For me it’s sitting here writing. I’ve had dreams of being a writer for most of my life but it never fails, life just gets in the way. I’ve read all the advice from other authors who say you’ve got to make time and I just never get to. It’s that darn thing called life, it keeps getting in the way. But today, I’m going to LIVE. I’m going to write until I can’t write anymore and I’m going to listen to music, dance, and just enjoy life. I’m going to celebrate life and take a short well deserved break from the hustle and bustle of the everyday.

I encourage you all to do the same too. Can’t do it today? That’s ok, just plan on a day this week. GO LIVE LIFE. Don’t just go through the motions.

What to Write

So this is blog number three and I still have no idea what I want to write about on a regular basis. I know if I just keep writing about random things that pop into my head you’ll all eventually get bored and I’ll lose you to the endless supply of people out there in the blogging world.

I thought about writing a short story and putting it up but then I wondered- “Can’t someone steal my work if I post it online?”

I don’t know the answer to that, maybe I’ll look it up and post about what I find. Or even better, maybe I can just give you tid-bits of stories I’ve started but never finished. Who know, if I do that maybe I’ll be inspired to finish some of those old attempts at stories.

You should all let me know what you think. I’m needy like that, I like the feedback.

But then again, aren’t all writer’s like that? They write because they love it but they feel most fulfilled when someone other than ourselves actually says it’s good. And I’m not talking about your mom, or that best friend who will tell you you’re amazing even if you suck monkey balls. (you know…I don’t remember where I first heard that but it just seemed right. If you don’t like it …tough.)

I’m talking about that random stranger who doesn’t know you or care even one iota if they hurt your feelings by being brutally honest. I LOVE those people! Even when they’re mean. You might think that makes me crazy but think about it, Even the best authors in the business have people who absolutely hate they’re stuff. So obviously you’re doing something right. Besides, anything that they say that’s negative is just fuel for future work; right?

Anyway, Thanks for reading! Leave some comments. Tell me what you want to hear. Or you can just be that hater who simply makes me want to write even more. Either way, I’ll be around.

Unlimited Chances

So, per the advice of a book I’m reading I’ve treated myself to some new pens. I am in love with them already. They make me want to write more and more just so I can use them.

The pens are an old favorite of mine, gel pens. You know the pens that come in a million different colors; some glitter, some are neon, and so on and do forth. They’re fun to write with and they bring back memories of playing silly games where you would write letters on your hands that somehow were able to make a whole sentence and the game ended with a “smashed bug” in your hand. I wish I remembered all the details on how we did it. Not remembering makes me feel old.

Speaking of games we played as kids; anyone remember MASH? Or the little fortune tellers we made out of folded paper? I wonder if kids still do that.

That MASH game, man it would provide countless hours of fun. You’d play it with your little friends during school and somehow you’d end up “living in a box with Bobby, that snot nosed kid no one liked, as your husband with six kids and a minivan. Not even close to how life works, but it was entertaining enough to make you play over and over again just to see if you could get your “dream life”. It rarely ever happened but then you had unlimited chances to get things right.

Don’t you wish real life was like that? Not the living in a box with Bobby and your six kids part, but the unlimited chances part.

I know I do.

In real life things are not so simple. Unlimited chances are something only kids have the luxury of most of the time. Once you reach adulthood you don’t get “do-overs”, you’re stuck with the choices you make no matter the outcome. But man, wouldn’t it be nice to have life just like that game? Don’t like how things are, just play again and next time it’ll be better.

But on the bright side, not being able to “make things perfect” makes like more interesting.

That Moment

I remember the moment I decided I wanted to be a writer.

It was when I was thirteen. I was in my freshman year of high school and I’d just read what I thought was the best book ever made (Cate Tiernan’s sweep series, book 1). Now I’d always loved reading, I was that kid that always had a book in her hands. Do you remember when you were in elementary school and your teachers made you read for at least thirty minutes every night for homework? I do. I LOVED IT. I would rather read a book than do chores. I remember my mom grounded me from reading one time when I was in the sixth grade; my teacher thought my mom was nuts.

Anyway, back to my moment.

After reading this book something was different. I felt energized. I wanted nothing more than to be a writer. I wanted to be just like Tiernan. I wanted to write a book, any book, just because I knew I could.

I remember all through freshman year I carried this yellow spiral notebook. I never put it down. I remember writing day and night, of writing when I should be doing homework, writing during class, on the bus, at lunch, anywhere and everywhere. I remember finally getting to the end of my story and thinking ‘Wow, I did it; now what?’

I was so excited of having written something I gave that story to my English teacher, Mr. Holloway. I asked him to read it. I was so nervous to know what he thought of it. I wanted to know, could I have a future as a writer? So I waited; it took a day or two but he read it. I remember going in one day during lunch to ask him what he thought and I was so surprised by what he said. He told me I did a good job. He said my story was actually really good, of course I’d made grammatical errors and a few spelling mistakes, but I had a good story. He encouraged me to keep writing and even suggested reading books by other authors and that if I did that I would get even better.

THAT was the moment that I knew I could do it. That was the moment I knew one day I’d be a writer. I could write a book. Hell, I could write one hundred books, I just had to keep writing.

Over the years I kept writing small tid-bits here and there. I took a creative writing class in high school, wrote a few short stories and got a good grade. I had one of my poems published in my high schools literary magazine, now that was amazing. Id’ never been more proud. I made friends with people who loved writing, art, and music. We shared ideas, stories, and supported each other’s dreams. Those friends introduced me to the world of role playing. Of working with others to build stories with our own characters and in our own worlds. I’ve got a bunch of old notebooks full of RPs from back then. I’ve even got a binder with a fan fiction that’s 300+ pages that I wrote with my best friend from high school (which reminds me I owe her a call).

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I’d never picked up that book. If I’d never wrote my first story and received encouragement to keep at it. What would I be striving for? I have no idea; maybe I’d be a chef? I do know that writing is a big part of my life. It is something that I’ve always enjoyed doing and though it has been a while since I’ve really written anything new I know I can. So this is the first step to getting back to what I love. It’s time for me to pick up that pen and start writing. If the byproduct of my writing just so happens to be a good story, book worthy or otherwise, so be it.